My Story

 Life is a never ending journey of discovering all that we can be!

I am a multifaceted lady who enjoys all things inspiring, expressive, consciousness expanding and creative. I appreciate the beauty of the Earth, the companionship of animals and the blessings that a child’s laughter and perspective can bring to our lives.

What has made me who I am ? – Life’s diverse twists and turns of ‘fate’ …

I know what it is to have money because I was born into it. My grandfather was a self-made millionaire. He started the company ‘Magnet Joinery’ (subsequently ‘Magnet & Southerns’ and now Magnet Ltd.) from nothing, selling bundles of firewood door to door in Yorkshire – He then started making small pieces of furniture for local people …and that’s where it all began – what a guy eh?

In 1960, (two years before I was born) shortly after my grandfather floated the company and my father was given his share – making him a multi- millionaire in his own right, he and my mother moved to the beautiful Island of Guernsey, where my father, then an architect, bought a large piece of land and built a fabulous family home on it. He also built 21 self-contained holiday flats with swimming pool complex, (‘Del Mar Court’) which became my parents business. We enjoyed a joyful, opulent lifestyle and my sister and I attended ‘Ladies’ College’ public school for girls on the island.

However, As the years went by, things began to change and I learned that having money doesn’t always bring happiness or contentment!
I wont go into details – suffice to say that the family endured several years of  ‘turmoil ‘, mainly caused by my My father’s – let us just say – many ‘unwise’ life choices, which eventually lead to him losing everything he had been given or worked for – including his health- and his family!

He went back to Yorkshire , Leaving my mother, my sister – who was age 12 at the time and myself (13) , alone, penniless and with all his debts to deal with.

The bailiffs came in and took everything! ..and I mean EVERYTHING!

My Father died a few years later, still penniless, at the age of 45.

My mother, sister and I left the island and moved to Sidmouth in Devon in 1976 . We rented a small flat above a shop ..and oh boy how we struggled to get by!
I had met a young man a few months earlier, whilst living on the island of Guernsey. He decided to move to Sidmouth to be near me. I was still very young and naive ..and had been through a lot – and by the time I was 17, I had married him and become a mother! We divorced a few years later and I became a single parent of two boys… without a penny of maintenance from him!

While I was married, my daily life consisted of the usual things ; seeing to the kids, housework, shopping, cooking, washing, watching television and weekend outings to the DIY store (sound familiar?) – Life was SO boring and personally unfulfilling – after all, I was at that age where most girls would be out socializing with friends ..I had no friends – and no social life outside of the marriage.

Surely there must be more to life?” I thought to myself.
Am I just another bored housewife, or is there a more creative, expansive, fun-loving individual inside of me waiting to get out?”

So I Started to look inside of myself for the real me..the me that had been left behind. What kind of things would I enjoy? I had such a desire for change. having pondered this or a while I began to feel a desire welling up withing me.. A sense of excitement at the possibilities.  I then decided to go for my vision!

I started weight training to try to get my body back in shape. This opened up a whole new interest for me and I began to feel really good about myself and my confidence soared!

I also decided to join a local amateur dramatics group, which uncovered an aspect of myself that I was not aware existed! – I found I was totally in my joy on stage in character. It was a great feeling to be able to be so expressive (something that had been missing in my life.) I also enjoyed being part of a group who were bringing pleasure to people through this form of entertainment.

Even when I later divorced and became a single parent of two and working part time as a fitness instructor, my newfound passions spurred me on- proving to myself that I could enjoy being a full time mum and still make the time to achieve my personal goals when I put my mind to it!

As a result of this my life expanded in many ways. I gained more self-confidence and life became more joyous. This in turn reflected on my family and friends – it was infectious!

After successfully achieving my physical sporting goals, both in bodybuilding and on the television series ‘Gladiators’, I then decided to turn my attention to other ‘aspects of Rowan’ these being ‘mind and spirit’.

This has led me on an ongoing personal quest for knowledge, which has included the study and practice of certain philosophies and concepts such as: the principals of physics/metaphysics – the study of the nature of reality and mind / consciousness, energy / vibration, Universal law such a The Law Of Attraction, meditation, spiritual awareness, Reiki healing, tarot, positive thinking and the power of the mind.

One thing I have learned, for which I am eternally grateful, is that TRUE wealth comes from WITHIN! – One of the greatest of these, being ‘Self-knowledge’. (Family members- even those who seem to put us through Hell at times, are some of our greatest teachers.)

Throughout my personal journey I have had many amazing, profound, and at times ‘mind boggling’ experiences and realisations. I have also learned many hard, but useful ‘lessons’ along the way (and continue to do so) – The path of the seeker is not always an easy one!

However, even when the ‘going gets tough’ and I find myself having to deal with a life drama or crisis, thanks to what I have learned along my path, I am always able to draw on my inner strength and knowledge, which enables me to get through it by choosing to look at it from a ‘higher’- or broader perspective, so that I do not become totally consumed or emotionally dragged down by it. – Life is all a matter of perspective! – Do we choose to see “the glass half full” or “half empty”?

By putting what I have learnt into practice in my daily life – and seeing these principles actually work!– it has left me with a feeling of deep gratitude for all I have received and experienced – The good and the bad!

I have gained a greater awareness of the ‘power’ we ALL have within us to shape our lives: Each and every one of us possess a unique ‘creative’ spark, which when ignited, can literally change our lives for the better, bringing us an ever greater sense of abundance and expansion.

- It is this philosophy on which this web site is based.

There is a well known poem by Marianne Williamson that I feel expresses this philosophy beautifully…

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate,
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves,
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn’t serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won’t feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest
The glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we’re liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.”

There are NO ordinary people

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Look inside, find your passion..and live life to the full!